s0hp0h (｡◕‿◕｡)

Life hasn’t been exactly treating me well lately, and the same can be said to the others around me. Why are things like this, why now and most importantly, WHY ME? Sigh. I guess it can’t be helped as life is constantly changing as we speak. It’s just that some people take it better than others, but who are we to judge when we’re not in their shoes. And what are we to say when simple words of comfort like it’s going to be ok is really stupid because god knows if it IS going to be ok? I am just not made for consoling others because on the days when I’m down, I do not like to be consoled. Not that it’s hypocritical, nothing like that, just that I prefer not to because I like to get better on my own,  and I hate the feeling of having to cry in front of other people, which is quite easy when you’re being comforted. And I sort of think other people need that too and sometimes if I seem too nonchalant or being too carefree about something, it’s usually not because I don’t, but I just want to respect the other person’s feelings. Which explains why most of the time I keep stuff to myself. Not just because I don’t want to trouble others with it, but I know it’s really not that big of a deal and other people surely have more pressing matters that they have to attend to. In a world with all it’s injustice and poverty and what’s not, I feel ashamed sometimes to even complain about mediocre stuff that doesn’t really matter, and really isn’t a problem in the first place. Like oh she sucks. Or like omfg it’s cold. As long as I can stay away from that person and have some clothes hanging around me, I really should be grateful. The crucial thing is I still have a choice. I can choose to not talk to that person if I want to. That’s done there and then. I can choose to don on more clothes, but I didn’t. I feel stupid for writing this, but since there’s nothing else I can write about these days in my blog, might as well right?

On another random note, I absolutely hate having to tell people the same thing over and over again. Like seriously, it just gets to a point that sometimes, I just cbf anymore. You want my opinion, yes you got it ages ago, and why are you still asking the same thing over and over again? And I’m not talking about anyone in particular so no need for any wild guesses, but just everyone in general. I cannot understand why are people so different when we are basically made up of the same right brain, left brain. I mean of course we don’t have the SAME brain, but you get what I mean, do we not all have a brain with white and grey mater and nerves and what’s not? Why must we be so effing different? It was said that the only similar thing between all of us is that we are all different. It just seems stupid. Of course I know not everyone can be Einstien, but this is not about intelligence, but basic reasoning. Basic logic. Is it really that hard? Don’t get why some people just don’t even have that basic uh, common sense. Some people like the bluntness and said that they’re so honest yada yada, I just think it’s plain ignorance and selfishness. This is not to be mistaken for the usual straight forwardness (because I myself can be quite blunt) that we expect from normal people. Only stupid people will say I don’t care about others because those will be the ones who, really, won’t be cared by others. There, wish granted. I cannot and WILL NOT expect people to do what I won’t do for others, so just live with it and stop whinging omg. Sorry, I just cannot tolerate stupidity very well, I’m learning sigh…

p/s oh and the irony of me saying to not complain bout silly stuff and yet here I ma writing a full post about it. Talk bout the time I have and the hypocriticalness. I am hypocritical,I give you that LOL

Many people seemed to have misconceptions about who s0hp0h really is, now in this very post, I attempt to clear up and answer whatever queries/confusions you may or MAY NOT have, but I’ll do it anyway cos this is my blog and if you don’t wanna read bout me, might as well read something else like Twilight, speaking of which I really should get my hands on a copy of New Moon, cos reading on the computer sucks, okay at this point if you are still following whatever crap it was that I just wrote, wow, good on you!

Ok you what, I’m gonna make this a tag. So whoever’s reading and haven’t been updating your blog for more than a month, you’re tagged (theoretically speaking but of course you can choose to ignore it, I mean what can I do right? I can only roll my eyes and scoff, some people *tsk tsk tsk* and of course you can choose to ignore that too so the end point is, it doesn’t really matter, but you know what, just for the sake of proving me wrong, DO IT ok?) So just write whatever myths there is about yourself and bust it if you can. Better still, write a post asking for ppl to describe you, and then bust it? Whicever works.

By this point you would have noticed that I do have a tendency to digress and ramble on and on. If you haven’t noticed, uhhhh… enough said. So Myth No 1: I can sure talk - PROVEN. No need to prove that lol. I think I can probably talk non-stop for a full hour and still go on and on and on, but only with people I like to talk to la. To others, I usually don’t have much to say.

Myth No 2: I am such a nice person. Seriously don’t know why so many people say this cause I honestly don’t see it. Other cliche includes, I’m oh-so-friendly, good yada yada yada. So let me set this straight, yes I might be nice but that’s not me, I basically just try to treat everyone how they treat me or how they deserved to be treated. If you’re nice, I’m all sugar and spice. If you’re not, I’m like what they say, hell hath no fury – and those who know me better will know I’m not exaggerating. But this agains come to my next Myth No 3: I am so mean, ya I know it’s a  contradicting one, I tend to do that alot, but I guess what I said before explains it all, so therefore these are I guess semi-BUSTED?

Myth No 4: I am smart. First of all, I would like to say I’m not smart at all because I would like to think I’m clever (yes there’s a difference just like how Tien Li told me there’s a difference between stupid and dumb – at this point you probably going what what what, so here I digress again, allow me to quote, dumb means you don’t have the brains, stupid means you have the brains, just don’t wanna use it. HAHA, I find it quite true, what a brilliant revelation). Cause clever means I got rewarded for my effort rather than my all nighters/cramming because I really think the fact that I studied so much earlier compared to before, is considered a very bloody well improvement. But then again, my results ain’t that flashy so how? So, in the end the conclusion is I’m dumb cause I did use my brain lorrrr =( so soooo BUSTED

Myth No 5: My mood swings faster than you can blink. Being a typical Cancerian is not without it’s worst attribute, my mood swings are terrible to say the least and it’s not even PMS related. I don’t know what gets into me, but it sure does bounces around crazily, I wish sometimes I can be a bit more stable – oiiii, by that I mean my mood, I’m not CRAZY ok! But usually I’m a rather happy possum (Anne, 2009)  especially when it comes to outings and shopping and food and what’s not. As long as you didn’t drag me alllll the way to Marion for a lousy Harry Potter movie (yes it was soo soooooo crap SIGHNESS), you’re all GOOD. Lol, so myth PROVEN.

That’s all I can think of for now, add more next time maybe. Only maybe. So to the people who’ve read up to here (any anyyy???? Hellooooooo~), you’re also obligated to do the tag, regardless of whether you’ve updated or not. Who ask you to read? Wanna read must got sacrifice la. Hahaha. I have my clinic attachment tomorrow, sighs, should be my off day neh. So toodles ppl!

To the non-existing readers. I seriously forgotten I even have a blog? I think it’s a sign of getting old. Just can’t be bothered to record down every single detail of my uninteresting life. How sad. The only fun thing in fact, was the fact that I remembered I have a blog. So far have I come. Looking at my old posts, so juvenile. Is that really me? I can only wonder in horror, how did you guys put up with my useless content? *roll eyes* Well this is as useless I’m sure. Anyway, I did have something interesting to talk bout but that can’t be blogged publicly, so I’ll do a private entry when I feel like it, which clearly isn’t now. Lol. I really should update my backdated birthday post, but I really cbf. Aih. I’ll do that next time la. Now gonna go, eat some apple custard pie. FML. It’s like almost 2 am.

s0hMood > *tired*

I didn’t like the latest Harry Potter movie. Sigh. What a let down. I have such high hopes. Oh well. Shit happens. Anyway. My clinic week is over and I’m so glad cause I haven’t even rest enough yet. So I can sort of slack off a bit this week. But there’s so much to do, doubt I can really rest T-T. I want holidayssss! Sigh. Days like these, I just wanna graduate. Why did I choose Dentistry? Why oh WHYYYYY? I just feel like not doing anything =( Please ignore me. Just feeling emo over no reason. I am a Cancerian afterall. Hate my moodswings. I tried not to let it show sometimes, but I know it does. I can’t mask it very well. Gahhh, I hate this. I don’t even know what I want. I just want to not do anything. Which is what I’m gonna do now. Long sigh. I miss home….

Haven’t been bothered to update lately so a quick one before I go to bed:-

Studied like crazy for exams.

Finished exams.

Holidayed for one week. Dids loads of shit. Namely eat. shop. sleep.

Can’t believe I was so occupied during the hols I didn’t even have the time to blog norrrr do any drama-ing. Wow.

Celebrated my birthday (pics and details next time – most prolly have seen from fb anyway, so no rush). Then Soph’s birthday. Cibo’s apricot cheesecake, OMFG yummy.

Wasn’t actually busy during hols. Just did loads of weird stuff. Like sitting on the front part of the cruise during the 1.5 hours ride in Pt Adelaide. Got to be the coldest effing day ever.

Discovered Casual Cup in Buddha Bar has some new items, namely the Yunnan bowl rice noodles with sour fish. Yummy!

Bazu is becoming shittier, I cannot understand why it’s getting so spicy nowadays. It almost felt like a torture trying to swallow down that piece of mapo tofu – didn’t dare to try the ‘la zhi ji’ again – was even MORe horrible.

Finished holidays in superbly high speed.

Start Uni T______T Need I say more?

Recieved package all the way from Msia from my fellow TAGians. Ten kiu veli veli much! Miss you guys!!!!!

Unusual entertainment – click here. Seriously laughed my ASS off.

It’s 11.58pm. Feeling unusually sleepy. Gah, the clinics are screwing my bedtimes all around. Anyway, got to go, toodles.

p/s I’m obssessing over food? (*%^*&^@*%!$%+_^*

I cannot believe I didn’t write a single word for the whole week of exams! It’s pretty amazing I must say. Cause usually my highest blogging rate will be during those swotvacs and in between exams as the last thing I want to do is study. Anyway, the exams have been so far so good, until yesterday. I didn’t sleep well or much at all and I was worried cause I didn’t really have the time to go through Ortho again. And with Paedo I am totally lost with all the luxation and avulsion statistics. But I cannot be bothered with Paedo anymore cause it already took so much time. In the end, Paedo exam turned out to be so hard. If I didn’t know better, I would not be able to even get 10 questions right. The saddest thing is it’s MCQ. But like the most complicated MCQ I’ve done in my entire life. I hope I did enough to pass. Sigh. But I couldn’t have prepared more because some of the stuff asked, weren’t in lecture notes T___T And like some of the answers were worded very trickly, I kept jumping back and forth between which is the right combination. Sigh. Good thing is everyone else I’ve talked to sort of feels the same, so I don’t think I’ll worry bout it too much, till the results are out. So fingers crossed!! Have to go study for my last exam. Have been procrastinating since yesterday. I’d like to call is post-paedo trauma. Lol. Anyway, study hard people! Ciaoz.

s0hMood > *angry*

Swotvac has been quite good since I managed to camp in the library 10-5 without fail, despite sleeping at 3am. I’m so darn proud of myself. But that’s about it. I spent most time talking rather than studying. Zzzz. It’s weird cause I’ve never talked so much in my life (I think). Sigh. I still have a lot to go through, a week left, fingers crossed I’m gonna finish everything and be well. I don’t wanna kick ass or anything (not that I can even if I want to), I just want to PASS OMGOMG.

Random: If looks can kill, the first to die will definitely be that stupid printer in Napier 122. Yup YOU FUCKING PRINTER, super duper lousyyyyy OMFG. I spent like an hour almost, just trying to print some notes, and they weren’t even thatttt ‘big’ in size (MB that is). And yet, the printer manage to take fucking forever to print. I was so damn pissed the moment I saw the usualy study gang, I cursed repititively in the middle of the library. Lol. But I was really fired up, that stupid printerrrr, I still feel like strangling it now. Can someone torch it for me? Tsk tsk tsk. I mean, is it too much to ask for? Just a printer that can print? As if it’s not enough that I have to put up with the lousy Med School printer, this Napier one is WORSE. I was standing there waiting for the printer to ‘recieve’ the data, process or whatever, I just feel like smashing my head against the wall. I so wanted to pick up the phone and called the IT people just to abuse them on the phone with theeffing printer’s incompetence OMFG. I was even thiiiis close to writing a rude email to whoever’s incharge to complain about the fucking printer. Sighhhh. I know. SWOTVAC screws up my emotions T_____T I shall go deal with them by studying Perio, but then again I can’t really finish cause guess what, the notes weren’t printed by the effing printerrrrrr gahhhhhhhhh!!! I swear I can eat a printer right NOW.

s0hMood > *Need to work hard*

It feels like I haven’t been blogging for the longest time, but in actual fact, I did blogged merely just yesterday. What a strange feeling. Exams really does screw up my brain. I managed to achieve a personal record today, that is…. tadaaaa waking up at 3pm. Sigh. I know. It’s like the lowest of low. WTF is wrong with meeeee? I really need to buckle up. Sigh. I know I’m continuously sighing. It’s prolly the only time of the year where you’ll see me sigh in like, every sentence. There I just did it again. Other than those times, I always LOL. Everyone in msn always pay me out about it. Lol. See what I mean? I LOL so much, seriously I don’t even mean it, I’m not actually laughing. I’ve become so accustomed to LOLing that I lol almost in habit after every sentence I typed in msn. It just comes out of no where and at times, I did it so fast without even thinking that it appears in the weirdest way. For example, OMG, how sadddddd lol. Wtf right? Or like yerrrrrrr she’s such a biatch, f f f, lol. Right. Anyway. Just another excuse to procrastinate. Because RC is on stupid maintence for like the umpteenth time and for the longest freaking time. WTHell is it alwaysssss on maintenance la seriously? I know I shouldn’t bother cause I’m supposed to be studying, but I NEED TO FEED MY WORKERS OMG. Sigh. Lol. Sorry. That Lol was for the fact that I sighed. Lol. Get it? Argh, I’m so confusing. But don’t mind me. I’m sure you people have better things to do than reading my lousy entry. For instance, STUDYing? Lol. I should get back to what it’s name, mucoepidermoid carcinomas. Sighhhhh

s0hMood > *Need to work hard*

Hello, pardon me for the hiatus! Not that anyone cares. But I’ve been busy studying. Again, no one cares. Oh wait, busy studying eh? Sounds like I’m so hardworking lol. It’s real misleading. Actually I’ve been busy + studying for a bit. Busy dramaing that is! Sigh. Why is it always near swotvac when I rediscover youtube and stream stream like there’s no tomorrow. Must be karma. Anyway, the fact that I’ve started studying is quite a good achievement imo cause I think it’s still kind of early. SO early that I’m darn sure Imma gonna forget whatever shit I read (namely ameloblastoma, odongotenic keratocyst – shit I’d already forgotten some liaoooo) in the past days. Which really comes to the question, why the fish am I studying when in the end, I’m still gonna cramp it all in? I dunnoooo! Sigh. Nevermindla, I supposed it’s better than doing nothing.

On another note, Adelaide has been real effing cold. Freak. Time to layer up and look like a fat ‘ba zhang’. Sigh. Cold makes me sleepy T___T I just don’t wanna leave my bed, so comfy, so warm! Beds are evil. But the very same bed saw me through the harsh nights of pre-exam cramping through the years. I really like studying on my bed for some reason. Maybe because of the convenience, like I can just sleep straight after – damn song! But then again it’s super hard to resist the temptation to just doze off my worries. I fought super hard to keep my eye lids open. Hopefully this year will be easier. This post is really quite useless leh. The chronicles of ma lousy boring study life =( Anyway, wish everyone’s studies is going well – happy studying everyone!

p/s Sudden revelation: we only have three more exam periods to go after this one till we grad! Sounds so darn near teeheheehehe